moments with You

it's one of those moments. i was just driving home after a supper with church friends. i'm aware my license has expired, but i told myself i'll drive in faith. it's been almost a week i've been in seclusion for a certain agony. it's easter and i missed these people, especially my brothers. it so happened there was a police check just across my home. the car in front of me was asked to pull aside. but when the police approached me, seeing my door glass was wound down he smiled and asked "pergi mana dik? (where are you going young man?);" i replied "balik rumah, i tinggal kat sana (going home, i live right there)," i said as i pointed across the road. he nodded at me and told me to just go ahead. thanking him and wishing him a good night, i drove ahead; breaking into little smile and giggles along the way.

it's just lovely Dad, these little moments when You show that You are indeed with me, it keeps me going. thank you Dad, i love You.

evil

must fight, must not lose...
Father, forgive me, i need You...

a broken's healing


You broke me to the pieces
and to the dust You pound me
what great pain it brings
Lord, to this heart of mine

but then i saw it, the tears
in Your eyes, Your hands
trembling, as You took upon me
once again for the many times

pieces by pieces, dust by dust
none amiss for great is Your love
together once again You put
to be shaped in Your love

o Lord how wrong i've been
to think i've been forsaken
for You never do
and never once willed so

for now i see what You brought me to
the plans You have to mould
to make me what i am meant to
a shape closer to Your heart

o Father, thank You for Your love
i pray Thy will be done
for now and ever
on earth as in heaven

in Jesus' name

amen

a broken's prayer


to the pieces You broke me Father
to the powders You pound me still
for what have i done wrong Lord Father
that You so sought me out with the steel

broken as i am, i come to You
and all i am, i surrender to You
on my knees i fall before You o Lord, face down
in my submission to You o Lord, i break down

Father, see the tears on the floor
how i have made it wet
with the waters that pours
from my face now all wet

o Lord o God, why the silence
have You forsaken me
in these times of pestilence
will all alone You leave me

speak Lord please, for Your servant listens
kneeling before You in fears and tears

o Lord, in Jesus' name i beg

amen


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i had it. the unbearable pain. the dark night of the soul. it's out with the tears i've cried. my eyes are ugly swollen. yet, the sadness remains, unexplained. i'll bear the shame.

the above came to me as i cried. i have a feeling i came across some of those lines somewhere. i may have plagiarized. it's unintentional and i'm sorry. please let me know if those lines are yours, and i thank you for the beautiful expressive writing.