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woke up at 10:30 am, cleaned up workdesk till 2pm (imagine the dust and trash gathered throughout the year). went for a feast as a self reward. then worked a bit on assignment. thereafter have been stuck sucking my thumbs and biting my lips (not so literally) trying to re-install windows xp onto my computer. i do not want to reformat my entire hard disk and i bloody hell insist on having the partition my way, but apparently microsoft has another say about where their os ought to be put. i'm still trying! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Christ, Be Our Light

A friend blogged this, i follow suit.



1. Longing for light, we wait in darkness.
Longing for truth, we turn to you.
Make us your own, your holy people,
light for the world to see.

Refrain:
Christ, be our light! Shine in our hearts.
Shine through the darkness.
Christ, be our light!
Shine in your church gathered today.

2. Longing for peace, our world is troubled.
Longing for hope, many despair.
Your word alone has power to save us.
Make us your living voice.

3. Longing for food, many are hungry.
Longing for water, many still thirst.
Make us your bread, broken for others,
shared until all are fed.

4. Longing for shelter, many are homeless.
Longing for warmth, many are cold.
Make us your building, sheltering others,
walls made of living stone.

5. Many the gifts, many the people,
many the hearts that yearn to belong.
Let us be servants to one another,
making your kingdom come

follow the Light

feel like saying

Robbie passed away last night, there was not much for the funeral. His five teens and wife 'recycled the protein'. He's been a good father and husband, he probably wished for it as well. I just cleaned their cage, albeit they did a good job recycling (leaving only the furry leather behind, which i had to throw away), there's an unpleasant smell of carcass.

My new semester started. I'm excited as i'm running full throttle. But just as much another part of me is really breaking down to pieces, with me rushing to put the pieces back more often than not. Leaving me little time to do other matters.

I'm finding it difficult to post blogs as it is. Hence, i'm starting to write entries offline and posting it online whenever i can. Which results in some entries popping here and there, since i'm keeping the posting date as the date i wrote the entry, not the date it's posted online.

I actually got mad at someone over the phone and hung up on him. Sometimes i do snap. Please watch out and just give me a smile if i snap at you. I will come to my senses and apologize (if i'm wrong). Else, do confront me, i don't want to lose any of you.

I wanted to enter the 'Inkscape - About Screen Contest' but did not manage the time. The sickness during the holiday really had me, it costed me 10 days in full measure. Which means there was quite a list of other things i could not manage during the holiday. Of which, i'm presently rushing to catch up as well.

Finally met up with a friend's friend. We drove off to Putrajaya botanical park last thursday, both drenched ourselves under the rain, deliberately, and it seemed we both enjoyed the occasion. It was a very nice long walk under the rain, very de-stressing, had not had it for a very very long time. I look forward to spending more time with him.

And the thought of taking an oath for priesthood is crossing my mind rather often for the past months... should i? I'd like to discuss this with someone, but who should it be?

Unto This Last

I've been reading 'Unto This Last' by John Ruskin. It's a very interesting book on the ideas of wealth. It's after reading this book that Gandhi was prompted to launch the Phoenix Settlement back in his days.

Look at a paragraph below from Essay IV of the book:
[I've added the bolding and underlining, hoping it will help you understand the paragraph]

The real science of political economy, which has yet to be distinguished from the bastard science, as medicine from witchcraft, and astronomy from astrology, is that which teaches nations to desire and labour for the things that lead to life: and which teaches them to scorn and destroy the things that lead to destruction. And if, in a state of infancy, they supposed indifferent things, such as excrescences of shell-fish, and pieces of blue and red stone, to be valuable, and spent large measures of the labour which ought to be employed for the extension and ennobling of life, in diving or digging for them, and cutting them into various shapes,or if, in the same state of infancy, they imagine precious and beneficent things, such as air, light, and cleanliness, to be valueless,-or if, finally, they imagine the conditions of their own existence, by which alone they can truly possess or use anything, such, for instance, as peace, trust, and love, to be prudently exchangeable, when the markets offer, for gold, iron, or excresrences of shells — the great and only science of Political Economy teaches them, in all these cases, what is vanity, and what substance; and how the service of Death, the lord of Waste, and of eternal emptiness, differs from the service of Wisdom, the lady of Saving, and of eternal fulness; she who has said, “I will cause those that love me to inherit SUBSTANCE; and I will FILL their treasures.”

What do you think?

I know it may take quite some time to digest. But do give it the thoughts necessary. You may then just see things in a whole different perspective.

Here's a link to download the full e-book*:
http://www.forget-me.net/Ruskin/

*there's quite a few spelling errors in the book, but nothing beyond bearing.

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Update on 20070115, another quote:

THERE IS NO WEALTH BUT LIFE. Life, including all its powers of love, of joy, and of admiration. That country is the richest which nourishes the greatest number of noble and happy human beings; that man is richest who, having perfected the functions of his own life to the utmost, has also the widest helpful influence, both personal, and by means of his possessions, over the lives of others.

Annie Lenox - Dark Road

i get teary when i saw this music video...



From Album - Songs of Mass Destruction
Dark Road Lyrics by Annie Lennox

IT'S A DARK ROAD
AND A DARK WAY THAT LEADS TO MY HOUSE
AND THE WORD SAYSYOU'RE NEVER GONNA FIND ME THERE, OH NO
I'VE GOT AN OPEN DOOR
IT DIDN'T GET THERE BY ITSELF
IT DIDN'T GET THERE BY ITSELF...

THERE'S A FEELIN'
BUT YOU'RE NOT FEELIN' IT AT ALL
THERE'S A MEANING
BUT YOU'RE NOT LISTENING ANYMORE
I LOOK AT THAT OPEN ROAD
I'M GONNA WALK THERE BY MYSELF...

UUUHHH...

AND IF YOU CATCH ME I MIGHT TRY TO RUN AWAY
YOU KNOW I CAN'T BE HERE TOO LONG
AND IF YOU LET ME I MIGHT TRY TO MAKE YOU STAY
SEEMS YOU NEVER REALISE A GOOD THING TILL IT'S GONE...

OOHH...
UUUHHH...
UUUHHH....

MAYBE I'M STILL SEARCHIN' BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT MEANS

ALL THE FIRES OF DESTRUCTION ARE STILL BURNIN' IN MY DREAMS
THERE'S NO WATER THAT CAN WASH AWAY THIS LONGIN' TO COME CLEAN...

HEY YEAH YEAH...
OOHH...
UUUHHH...
UUUHHH...

I CAN'T FIND THE JOY WITHIN IN MY SOUL
IT'S JUST SADNESS TAKIN' HOLD
I WANNA COME IN FROM THE COLD
AND MAKE MYSELF RENEWED AGAIN (I WANNA GO LIVIN ?? I WANNA COME RENEWED??) ????
IT TAKES STRENGTH TO LIVE THIS WAY (OOHH)
THE SAME OLD MADNESS EVERYDAY (NOOO)
I WANNA KICK THESE BLUES AWAY (KICK AWAY NOW)
I WANNA LEARN TO LIVE AGAIN

HEY HEY HEY
HEY HEY HEY

IT'S A DARK ROAD
AND A DARK WAY THAT LEADS TO MY HOUSE
AND THE WORD SAYS
YOU'RE NEVER GONNA FIND ME THERE OH NO
I'VE GOT AN OPEN DOOR
IT DIDN'T GET THERE BY ITSELF ..OOH
IT DIDN'T GET THERE BY ITSELF

exam results

after 4 times of retaking, i passed...